Blood racing . . . Pulsing . . . Walking through life as if in a dream . . . Not sure if what I see and hear is real or made up. Dazed and in a fog I continue on.
Why does my heart hurt at the end of a good day? Why does my opinion not matter at all? There's something to be said for great relationships but how much does it mean if it's great because there is no challege? No discrepency? No questioning? " />
I'm angry. Alcohol induced anger . . . Whatever. Just makes people say what they should say sober. I wanna be cared about. I want to be considered. Is that so fucking dfficult?
Why the turmoil, questions, hypothetical situtaions? Why not just here and now, take it or leave it? Is it ever that easy or have I just let it become complicated?